4/7/20 Annie: The vegan chili was amazing! Bulgar wheat made the liquid hearty and gave that substantial meaty mouth-feel. Matt also made a quinoa black bean and bell peppers warm salad with a chili-lime dressing and avocado on the top. Yum!
I’ve been so grateful to have him prep/make meals for us both during this Governor ordered stay-at-home season and know that it’s nourishing to us both, but that’s probably not what you’re here to read about. A couple of days ago the oncology doctor’s clinic called to reschedule his MRI follow-up as a virtual call (Zoom telehealth) rather than a phone call. We wonder if there will be a day when we get a phone call from that number or a message in our healthcare portals that doesn’t immediately cause our bodies to react with adrenaline…perhaps in time.
The doctor said, “Your MRI looks great!” She continued, “The tumors are all decreased in size and the small nodule ones have mostly disappeared.” Exhale. The rest of the conversation was about the next scan to come–a chest and abdomen CT (in May sometime) to check if the targeted treatment is having the same effect there as in the brain. The doctor scheduled her next “visit” with Matt again as a virtual call reiterating that we don’t know how things will be with COVID-19. She was really glad to see Matt doing so well!
Getting off the call I felt joyful and ready to get on with my afternoon. Matt wasn’t quite there. He was disappointed that the MRI was not tumor-free and started to think about whether the treatment was going to keep working. We process differently, we all process differently. Later on in a text, Matt acknowledged that faith as it relates to healing is odd–there can be instant and in-stages, and that his understanding is in a new deeper light. My step-mom responded, “I think we can hear and rely on God more so when the journey is a little longer rather than instant. We learn to trust Him more deeply and give Him permission to do the deep healing work that needs to take place in our lives.”
L-R Top: Masking up to go to the “drive thru” farmer’s market, out of “dog medicine”–onto “horse medicine”, dear friend sent a shipment from Organics to You, Matt telling his soccer buds that he can’t wait to win more “one-size-fits-none” Championship t-shirts with them
L-R Bottom: Working from home candid, beautiful spring day, “this is where I work now!?”, the Word of God next to my dog (my shirt says “I just want all the dogs”)
Matt & Annie - Journey 